Noticing, Allowing, Shifting

Woke up today with a real sense of restlessness.  Four hours later, and I’m still in that space.  Have tried to channel it a bit — clearing, purging, following up — essentially doing tasks that I tell myself need to be done, and that once done will alleviate the jittery feeling in my stomach.  And yet, the restlessness continues. So, what to do?

My sense is that, from a leadership perspective, restlessness is a signal of some sort.  What it’s signaling I have yet to figure out.  Is there something I’m forgetting?  Is there something needing my attention?  Am I sensing something in the energy “out there” that I just haven’t yet been able to name?  Or is it simply a signal to take a break and get out of my head?  I’m really not sure.  Each of these possibilities has resonance to some degree or another.  And given this uncertainty, it would be really easy for me to “get stuck” today — and stay stuck.  But I’m determined to not get stuck.  I’m determined to stay in the flow, the flow that has been so much a part of my experience of the last few days.

Now here’s an interesting realization; lines up with a “stick  flowing in the river” metaphor.  As I picture this stick, I envision it getting stuck along it’s route, likely between two rocks or something of the sort.  Being determined to stay in the flow, doesn’t actually serve it in getting unstuck.  “Stuck” is a real part of it’s journey.  So maybe, rather than trying to get unstuck, there’s something to be said for me in allowing the stuckness/restlessness as simply part of the flow, rather than contrary to it.  Maybe that’s what will ultimately shift the restlessness — allowing, rather than resisting.

That’s where I’m at in this moment.  Going to go allow the restlessness, even as I know my objective is flow.  It’s all part of the deal.  Moving with and through the restlessness is bound to take me forward.  time to stop resisting and judging, and start allowing and shifting — and ultimately leading.  This is good.