Drawing a Blank

Woke up this morning with more energy than I have in the last few weeks.  A good feeling.  Got down to work fairly quickly, prepping the kids for school, finishing touches on lunches, eating breakfast — you know the drill.  All good stuff, great time to connect and be with each other.

Then, I settled down to follow up emails.  Some great stuff to respond to, including making it through to the “next stage” of the application process for an upcoming leadership conference.  Aiming to be the keynote — it would be an absolute fit for me and them, and I was thrilled to start my day with the news that I’m in the running!  Followed this with some gratitude and visioning, before launching into client calls — love it when client calls go where they least expect to go AND they make breakthroughs and have insights that will move them forward.  Feeling blessed to do this work.

Then, a bit of social media stuff.  Another way of staying connected.  Noticing a connection theme for me as a leader.  Feels important to maintain connections — make new ones, build upon old ones, etc; — when striving to breathe life into my leadership vision.  And now, I’m drawing a blank.  I know what I want to do next — that is, I know what project could benefit from my attention.  And, I don’t know exactly what to do.  Even as I write this, I have a sense that the answer lies in the connection piece — but not solely in outward connection.  There’s a way in which I actually need to go inward first, connect to my inner knowing, then turn my attention outward, connect and create from there.

My sense is that leaders from all walks of life have this challenge, at least periodically.  There’s a way in which the answer can sometimes be elusive — which can be frustrating when we’re feeling the pressure to be in the know, constantly.  And so, I’m just owning here and now that sometimes, I don’t know.  And that’s okay.  Sometimes, it’s easier to create on a blank canvas anyway.  That’s where I’m at today.  Onward and upward.