When You Lose Momentum

It’s funny; I don’t think I’ve ever really been in this position before.  That is to say, I don’t think I’ve ever really “lost” momentum.  I think there have been times where I’ve slowed down, where I’ve felt myself losing momentum, but I’ve never actually lost it entirely.  Well, I guess there’s a first time for everything.  Because at this point, I have definitely LOST momentum.  It’s gone.  Kaput. Fizzled out.  And it feels wierd!

Years ago, in highschool physics class, I remember learning some law that says an object in motion likes to stay in motion, unless it is stopped.  This much I remember.  And this is the way I’m feeling right now.  Like everything has ground to a halt.  It’s all stopped.  What I don’t remember is how that same object can get started again.  I’m actually sitting here, in this space of my life, having lost momentum completely, and wondering “how do I get it back?”  “Where do I start?”

The answer that keeps coming up is “just take one step — any step.”  Which seems to make sense.  What I’m finding most intriguing, however, is how hard it is to take a step, any step.  It actually takes a LOT of effort (or at least it is for me).  And this is really frustrating.

All this being said, I must state that writing this blog post is — in and of itself — a step for me.  It is one thing off of my weekly task list.  From here I will send some email correspondence.  Then I will work on polishing my survey for interested participants.  Slowly but surely, i will keep taking steps.   And what I know for sure is that by taking one step at a time, I will build momentum and get my rhythm back.  The challenge for me right now is to stay in the “one step at a time” moment, until I get to the rhythmic momentum moment.  And I will get there.  One step at a time.